Say it once.. But mean it !

My thoughts... put across in words by someone else... !!

"You may not be her first, or her only. She loved before, She may love again. But if she loves you now, What else should matter?

She is not perfect, but you aren't either, but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice and admit to being human and making mistakes, Hold on to her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she would give you a part of her she knows you can break- Her Heart !

So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than what she can give.. So..

Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, Miss her when she is not around and most of all Love her like you never loved her before !!! "

--- Words by Bob Marley !!!

Respect !

Cheers.. Kash !

What makes me write??

Several times I have wondered what is it that makes me write... Well to be very honest I had started this blog just as a trip log when I used to go on frequent biking trips. It used to be just a periodical update on the different places visited, different experiences etc. Even my blog name was riderash.blogspot.com.. :o) Initially I used to enjoy it, but later on when the excitement died down, so did the frequency of my posts.

After a while I did change the content of my blog.. Started writing on two wheelers and automobiles and F1 sports etc, stuffs on which I can go on for hours together. Stuff which really interests me.. But then i realised i wasn't blogging in the true spirit. I was just sharing my interests and views on the latest happenings in the automotive world. I felt as though my blog had become an update centre of the auto industry without doing proper justice to it. Gradually the posts dwindled..

My blog had literally gone on a long slumber as I had completely left it for a while. Though there was always something in me that used to tell me, "Ashwin, Dude, revive your blog man, think of something, do something".. But still there was no action at all.

2008 December.. An incident in my life jolted me so wildly that I was just knocked out of my regular track. It was a really tough time and with no one around I decided to just pen down random thoughts. I realised that this was the place where I could just honestly express myself without caring about anyone else. Unknowingly I started to love the freedom associated with writing in my own space. I could express my opinions on anything..

It was at this point that I realised that all this while I was thinking of a topic to write about, an idea to keep my blog alive, when I actually don't need a particular topic that confines my thoughts. I want it to be boundryless. I no longer felt like - " Oh today I have to post something ". The feeling was more like - " Wow, I can write about this too.. " That explains the current blog name - mymindscribblings.blogspot.com.. A random scribbling pad for the never ending thoughts that flow everyday.

Psst... :o) All this high Funda gyaan on free flow of thoughts etc apart, I should honestly admit that the real reason that motivates me ultimately is the lovely comments that I receive from my wonderful readers who still put up with my crap and the increasing number that you see on the little blue widget below. [Yes.. I have managed to scale up from a poor 31 to a fairly decent 69 on the Indiblogger rankings.. :)]..

Am I letting my free flow of thoughts get tainted by a meagre number game or am I actually expressing my thoughts ... Umm.. I don't know the answer.. I leave it to you guys....

Cheers

Kash !

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Tag Along......

I would like to thank Shas for tagging me into this.. I have made an attempt to be as honest as possible...

RULES: Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list.

1. What is your current obsession? Attempts at understanding What I want?
2. What are you wearing today? Cargo Shorts and a Sleeveless Tee
3. What’s for dinner? Whatever is available on the menu in the near by Dhaba.. J
4. What’s the last thing you bought? Let me make it last Things .. Two Bottles of Jack Daniel’s premium scotch Whiskey, A Watch for myself and Loads of Chocolates …
5. What are you listening to right now? Always the last to Know – Del Amitri
6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? A fantastic Blogger.. Someone whose blog is so vibrant and full of action that it doesn’t fail to generate an excitement every time I visit it. This is basically coz the posts are exactly a mirror image of her thoughts without any adulteration.. Her interests in Trekking and Photography reveal her love for nature and an eye to appreciate the same..Hey BTW, would love to see your work of art through your camera as well, coz I share a similar interest in capturing beautiful moments through the lens.. J
7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? A Bunglow at Munnar, Kerala
8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? My Ipod, My Shades, and of course, My Bike
9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? To the top of Alps, Switzerland
10. Which language do you want to learn? There is something very classy about Spanish. So Spanish it is…
11. What’s your favourite quote? “Of all the things I have lost, I miss my mind the most.” – Read it on a T-shirt, but just loved it !! J
12. Who do you want to meet right now? Someone who was and still is very special to my heart !
13. What is your favorite color? Black
14. What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own closet? A faded navy blue slim fit jeans.
15. What is your dream job? To travel around the world, meet all types of people..
16. What’s your favourite magazines? Overdrive, Autocar, Readers’ Digest, The Economist
17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? Another one of those expensive Watches
18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? Women in Platform heals.. Yikes !!!
19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? Gauri Khan (wife of SRK) (I stick with your answer Shas.. J)
20. What kind of haircut do you prefer? Jus the regular trimming..
21. What are you going to do after this? Work.. Loads of office work to be completed.. Naa.. Doze off !!
22. Who is your favourite sport star? Lewis Hamilton, F1, Mclaren Mercedes.
23. What are three cosmetic/makeup/perfume products that you can't live without? My Perfume, Hair gel, Moisturizer. Can’t believe I just said that….
24. What inspires you? My past..
25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you: Blue Denim and White shirt, A Cap and My attitude..
26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)? I make a compromise and settle for something
27. Coffee or tea? Coffee it is..
28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed? Music.. love it..
29. What is your nickname? Ash ,Ashu, Akki.. That’s it.. you cant trick me into revealing everything here....No way…
30. Which other blogs do you love visiting? The Midnight Sun, Whrahoolz Ramblings, I am Here to stay the list just goes on and on..
31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? Chocolate Ice cream..
32. Favorite Season? Winter..
33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? I am a very bad Chef, but stil you get a very nice warm cup of Coffee and a fantastic Plate of Hot Maggi Noodles.. That’s what I was actually about to prepare.. Wink wink.
34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? Forget about their existence in this world !
35. What are you afraid of the most? Reliving the past.
36. If you could undo any one of your past actions or acts which would be that? Would have never said YES !
37. My Question: What does one have to do to live a Care free life forever?

Guilty or Innocent ?

I owe a major one to Amrit… I am really sorry for the long delay in completing the tag buddy.. But its better late than never ryt??

So here is it goes and the tag name is Innocent..or Guilty? Please read the rules carefully!

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends..

• Asked someone to marry you? Guilty
• Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent..
• Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
• Ever told a lie? Guilty …No survival without this.. J
• Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty
• Kissed a picture? Guilty
• Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent.. 2PM is the limit… J
• Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty
• Held a snake? Guilty
• Been suspended from school? Innocent
• Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent
• Stolen from a store? Innocent
• Been fired from a job? Innocent.. uuh… Not yet I believe.. ;)
• Done something you regret? Guilty L
• Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Innocent.. Yuck…
• Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.. Never got a chance till date in 25 years.. Can you beat that???
• Kissed in the rain? Guilty… It was awesome :) …
• Sat on a roof top? Guilty
• Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Guilty.. Still cant believe it happened..
• Sang in the shower? Guilty.. Always..
• Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.. Was in my Shorts.. ;)
• Shaved your head? Guilty
• Had a boxing membership? Innocent.. (Hey Amrit, Did u Add this question???)
• Made a girlfriend cry? Guilty
• Been in a band? Innocent
• Shot a gun? Guilty
• Donated Blood? Guilty..
• Eaten alligator meat? Innocent
• Eaten cheesecake? Guilty
• Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty
• Have/had a tattoo? Innocent
• Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
• Been too honest? Guilty
• Ruined a surprise? Guilty
• Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterward? Guilty
• Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty
• Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Guilty…
• Joined a pageant? Innocent
• Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty
• Had communication with your ex? Guilty….
• Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Guilty
• Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty

Wow.. I have scored 26…. Now that’s a pretty decent score I believe.. J

Know Yourself Better

This is a loong pending post... Amrit had tagged me in... So here I go.. Letting myself off..
I tagging a few of my buddies as well.. Deepthi, Zack, Dad, UL, Nikki.. Guys.. Plz try it out.. Its interesting... :)

My Responses >>>

1. Were you named after anyone?
Guess my previous post would explain that … Wink...!

2. When was the last time you cried?
Excuse me.. Guyz don’t cry… Bet this is passé…. Apparently it was last evening itself. I was watching Taare Zameen Par.. The last scene, where Ishaan gets the award, I didn’t even feel like struggling to hold back the tears. It was a direct hit at the heart !! And I bet, even the most stoic person would shed a tear or two… :)

3. Do you like your handwriting?
Love it.. Except when I am completely bored.. It gets really ugly…

4. What is your favorite lunch meat?
Prawns.

5. Do you have kids?
Nope..

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
If I were another person, I would have definitely been ‘Good Friends’ with me as I am a very buddy buddy kinda guy…

7. Do you use sarcasm?
Yes I do. Use it a loot to tease friends.. No harm intended though !! But its fun...

8. Do you still have your tonsils?
Yes! No idea why this questions figures in here....

9. Would you bungee jump?
Oh yes, Very baaadly! I never got a chance to try it out have been wanting to do it …

10. What is your favorite cereal?
Rice…I guess… …

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Always…. I Neva take em off without untying them.. The only reason behind it being the fact that it would be equally difficult to put them back on the next time with the laces still tied!!

12. If you were to pick your own first name, what would it be?
It would definitely be Ashwin , again…

13. What is your favorite ice-cream?
Chocolate. All time hit in my case....

14. What is the first thing you notice about people?
What kind of shoe, and what brand of Watch is he/she wearing.. Believe me it gives a loot of info on the Personality of an individual. The next thing, of course is the way the individual speaks…

15. Red or Pink?
RED.. I hate anything to do with PINK… it’s a personal thing..

16. Whom do you miss the most?
Ma nephew…. Aryan…

17. Do you want everyone to complete the list?
Yes.. I would definitely expect the people I forward the List to complete it…

18. What color clothes are you wearing?
Faded Blue Jean + White Short sleeve Tee .. :)

19. What are you listening to right now?
Illusions and Dreams – Poets of the Fall

20. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Black…

21. Favorite smells?
Hugo Boss – SOUL and also.. Fuel - Petrol, Fresh Paint, and Fresh Coffee on a rainy day… Whacky choices huh…

22. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Silly question !!!! Anyways it wouldn’t be of any use here…

23. How do you know the person who sent this to you?
Well, he is my Colleague, my buddy the guy who inspired me to restart this blog which I had almost let it go !!! Thanx a lot mate…

24. Favorite sports to watch?
F1 and Moto GP... The only sports which deserve my precious time before the TV... :)

25. Hair Color?
Black

26. Eye Color?
Brown

27. Do you wear contacts?
No…neither glasses

28. Favorite Foods?
Mexican Red Wave Pizza – with extra cheese and a chilled Coke

29. Scary movies or happy endings?
Depends on the mood!

30. Last movie you watched?
The Day the Earth Stood Still

31. What book are you reading right now?
The White Tiger – Want to find out why d hell it won the booker prize.. :)

32. Summer or Winter?
WINTER alwaays !!

33. Hugs or Kisses?
Both are needed but if I have to chose one, I would prefer a “I am there for you, always” Hug over a Kiss… Waiting with my arms wide open.. ;)

35. Describe your pencil cup?
My company’s coffee mug got became my Pen- stand recently… A White cup with a huge Logo of my company all across the mug !!!

36. Favorite Artists?
Darren Hayes, Nickelback, Poets of the fall, Eagles, Linkin Park, Akon …

37. What kind of music are you into?
Rock, trance, and Hip-hop

38. What is on your mouse pad?
I use the touchpad..

39. What did you watch on TV last night?
The making of Departed, Followed by the Lonely Planet on Travel and Living ………..

40. Favorite Sound(s)?
A Yamaha R1 roaring its engines in the First gear, A Mclaren Mercedes F1 car zipping towards the finish line.. Aah !! Heavenly Bliss !!!

41. Do you sing or play an instrument?
I only sing when I am in the Mood.. I used to play the Keyboard.. My mom still abuses me for giving the hobby away half way through !!!

42. What is the farthest you’ve been from home?
I had a chance to visit Taiwan and Hong Kong in the recent past.. Till date the farthest point from my hometown in Trivandrum, Kerala

43. Do you have a special talent?
I have no idea if it’s a special talent or not, but I have this amazing ability in me to go and spend my time and money on things which I actually never wanted !!! Trust me.. I never learned from my mistakes… hehe…

44. Where were you born?
In a small and sleepy city >> Trivandrum, the Capital of Gods own Country…

45. Favorite piece of jewelery?
A simple , Thin Platinum chain

46. How did you meet your spouse/significant other?
Sob sob.. Yet to find the perfect match….

47. Favorite Song?
That’s definitely not a fair question to ask !!!

48. Favorite Musical Movie?
Sound of Music

Phew.. Finally.. Man It was a loong one.. But Worth it.. I tell you.. Some of these questions did really get me thinking...

Cheers...

"What Do You Mean?? "

Before you start wondering what this post is all about, let me clarify, I am making an attempt to find out what does my name mean.. All these years, I beleived that my name had to do something with "Ashwamedham", (A Horse..) Like every one else I too have used my name with pride many times.. Corrected people when they spell it wrong (Man I hate when ppl do that...), but I myself never bothered to dig deeper beyond the "Ashwamedham" concept i had in mind.. What a shame.. I dont exaclty know what my name means.... :(

It all happened recently, when I had to travel to Taiwan for a Business Visit. There I happened to meet our client Mr. Ashin Nuhi... During our introductory session, he so beautifully expalined the meaning behind his "COMPLICATED" name, which means bright sunshine in Taiwanese.. (Read-- Chinese).. During our casual chat he somehow , in his broken English, managed to ask me.. So Mr Ashwin, WHAT DO YOU MEAN?? I was jus startled... Then i realised he wanted to know What my name means... Now this I had never thought... Never in my dreams did I think I will be explaining the meaning to Ashwamedham to a Chinese guy..To make matters worse, I myself was not aware as to explain it in greater detail. Thats when it struck to me that i should come up with a more GENERIC meaning of my name, coz i have never bothered to probe beyond what I already knew..

A bit of googling on my name turned out to be really intersting... It threw up a loot of results... I suggest all of you guys who would want to kill some time should definitely do this activity...
he he... Especially in Office.... what say??
Well this is what the worldwide web thought about me.. (or rather, my name)

Ashwin ,also known as Aswayuja, is the seventh month of the Hindu calendar and the sixth month of the Bengali calendars, and also sixth month in the India's national civil calendar, where it is the second month in Shôrot, (Sharad in Hindi) or Autumn

Ashwin also means light in the Hindi language, and Ashvini is the first star that appears in the evening sky, in Hindu constellation it is the head of Aries, or the first of the 27 Nakshatras.

Ashwin also stands for the Divine twins, the "Ashwins" , considered to be the Hindu Gods of vision, in Hindu mythology.

I was surprised by the kind of relations or meanings that my name had.. The next immediate thing I was trying out is to suit the perfect meaning to my name, which matches my personality.. he he.... So i decided to stick with " Ashvini is the first star that appears in the evening sky, in Hindu constellation it is the head of Aries, or the first of the 27 Nakshatras." So now I mean a Star, nad not jus a Horse... A good discovery..

So the next time some chinese guy asks me WHAT DO YOU MEAN? I can proudly Say that I am a Star.... ha ha..

Oh.. Suddenly I have run out of thoughts.... So hmmm.. I guess thats all 4 now.... This is Ashvini the Star.. signing off !!! ;)

Ah ! This is Life....

“I want 2 go back to the time when getting HIGH, meant on a swing, whenDRINKING meant only apple juice, when DAD was the only hero, when TRUE LOVE meant Mom’s hug, when DAD’S SHOULDER was the highest place on earth, when your WORST ENEMIES were your siblings, when the only thing that could HURT you were skinned knees, when the only things BROKEN were your toys, and when GOOD BYES only meant till tomorrow.”

This would have been just another one of those regular SMSes, had I not been going through what I am going through my life at present. This message touched me so deep that, here I am, up at 2.30 AM on Monday morning trying to express my emotions in a balanced way !!!!

In lyf they say, its the experiences that make or break you... I had least expected that my life would take such an unexpected turn. The turn of events were so dramatic that even though I am totally hurt and shattered from with in, when I look back (though i haven’t gone much ahead now,) it helped me realise that life has a lot more to it than what I had in my mind. I know its z pretty late realization for a guy of my age, but hey,its never too late for anything.... [Jus for the record, I am just 25.. :o) ]

Let me start off with an honest confession. I would have never ever written something related to feelings and emotions and values and other related stuff. I was always the guy who used to take things the way it comes... I always used to think, Arrey whats in all this yar? Its all part of parcel of your regular life. But may be I had taken life for granted..Until now that is....

I was always a guy who was content in life. I was happy with the way I was.I never had to struggle hard for anything that I wanted. I was fortunate enough to get everything that I wanted. But what I failed to realize was that, in the midst of all these momentary happiness, I never realized the worth of these things ever........When I look back, I realise how casually I had taken my life.

I was thehappiest guy alive on earth when I got the Bike of my dreams during mygraduation. I was the happiest guy on earth when I got my admission for myMBA. I was the happiest guy on earth when the prettiest lady I have everseen had decided to walk into my life. And I felt I had everything in theworld when I got placed. But as mentioned earlier, I had completely lost myself in this momentary elation.

But there will always come a point in your life when you feel, everything is crashing down on you. Things were all smooth sailing for me, or so I thought. I am happily working in Chennai,frequenting to meet my parents and friends and the usual. Though I too was grateful to god for what I had, I never reciprocated in the same way I was expected to. I failed to meet or rather understand the implicit expectations, that my friends, parents and others had on me. Little did I know that life isn’t always fair.

I had a rude awakening to reality, and that is what has jolted me like crazy. Never in my wildest dreams had I thought that such a thing could happen to me. I suddenly felt as though some one has thrown me off the track. All I could feel was, how on earth could this happen. Things were al so fine. I was expecting, praying that things will fall back into its place. The toughest part was, since I had never faced such difficult times, I had no clue how to handle it. Add to it, the fact of being all alone and Work pressures mounting on your head !! I almost lost it.

Thats when I realized that Life aint always easy. You Think it may be easy, when things move exactly the way you want it to move. But what should be understood is that Life is not always only about you. Its about the people around you as well.

I am thankful to HIM, for whatever I am today. I am thankful to HIM for whatever has happened in my life. I must admit, there has been a paradigm shift in my attitude towards life. I know how important it is to be there for somebody when they really need you. Never ever take any body for granted, even if they are your clooosest of closest pals, thinking that they always understood you well. Never stay away from expressing your love to one and all and so on.....

Please dont take this as some kinda advice, but its just that I have learnt a lot from my own experiences.

All I have to say is that, every little incident that happens in ones life is hinting at something really big and it happens for a reason. Take time out to realize that. Learn to value relations, learn to value what you are and most important, learn to value your life.